Senioritis is hitting me. Badly. I am such a laze these days, and I don't want to be. I have been getting low scores on almost everything except my thesis drafts lately, and it fels awful. Although my thesis is the only thing that places a question mark on my graduation (and what a question mark it is!), I have to remember that this year is still going to affect the 'all-important' (?!) GPA somehow. *Slaps self*

[rant]I am trying to get sponsors for an org project I am currently managing, and I swear that it is so hard. You have to talk to high-ranking people who sound so iffy over the phone, and in the end you depend entirely on their good graces for much-needed cash. Why does this have to be the way that things work? Asking sponsors for what is supposed to be a general org fundraiser seems like such a paradox.[/rant]

This week has (and will continue to be) super crazy. I just came from my immersion last weekend. It was great, but came at the completely wrong time, since I have a physics long test tomorrow, oops, I mean later, and I am seriously under-prepared. Because of immersion, I wasn't able to study at all this past weekend. I'm not even thinking about my Philo Orals on saturday. One thing at a time.

Taking a break from studying physics. Its been horrible. I've never liked subjects involving a lot of math and logic, but I just have to grit my teeth and keep on solving and solving, even though I spent 45 minutes on one problem which I feel will appear in the test and STILL couldn't solve it. Aaaargh! Like Math, physics is seriously bad for my self-esteem. Makes me feel like such an illogical dunce.

On a good note, my introduction for thesis came back to me from our coordinator with a 'very good' and with minimal corrections. Yay. It pays to have an adviser who is always breathing down your back. I've also finished my write-up, it may be sloppily put together, since I just asked a bunch of my blockmates to say a few lines about me and then threw them all into a paragraph, but I like it.

Yes, its been a long time. No, I don't care. :D Let's get right down to business shall we?

1. I am a senior now. I. am. a. senior. now. With a thesis that is driving me absolutely crazy and I'm just about to start on the experiment proper. Aargh! I'm currently swinging between two extremes: sometimes I'm extremely productive, other times I while away the hours in a state of utter and complete procrastination when I know there is still so much to do.

2. Haven't been able to think of a creative pose yet. I discovered my great grandfather's Philippine Free Press circa 1950s collection and a tabacalera metal cigar box in an old baul, and I somehow want to incorporate it as my props, but I can't think of a costume to match. Does anyone know how to dress up as a 1950s guy but still manage to look feminine? If worst comes to worst, I've borrowed a chef's jacket from my friend which I can just throw on on the day itself.

3. That booksale at school last week was great, and reminded me how much I miss reading. I positively salivated over them- good choice, good prices. I HAVE to visit AS walk again sometime.

4. Like Belle, I have found myself falling asleep over Philo, and I think my teacher has started noticing. He is great, many insights, so I have no idea why I'm always so sleepy. Maybe because it's my third class in a row on MWF.

5. Currently watching Lovely Complex. The manga is one of my favorite shoujo mangas ever and the anime hasn't disappointed so far: last thursday night, I threw everything up in the air and ended up watching 4 episodes straight until 2:30 am. Wound up waking up eight minutes after the time I normally leave the house, but oh well.

I've just come home from a packed day- first singing/yelling/screaming/murdering power ballads in karaoke with some of my best friends from highschool. Imagine a bunch of girls yelling (I won't even call it singing) this line from Celine Dion's classic song "I Love You": I looooooooveeeee yooooooouuuuuuuuuu/ Please say you loooooooooveeeeeeee meeeeeeeeeeeee tooooooooooooooooo/ These three wooooooooohuuuuuuuuurdsssss! Etc etc etc. Buti na lang nasa loob kami ng automated karaoke machine box sa arcade para puwedeng feel na feel talaga sa kanta. :P

Then came dinner with my blockmates, since one of our ex-blockmates is here from Davao for sembreak. Fun again- I brought some munchkin donuts which disappeared in 10 minutes. One of my blockmates set up this big boombox which played nonstop cheesy 80s songs and 90s boyband hits, which meant another round of informal karaoke singing. :D

I just checked my mail now and saw an e-mail from my Org Chem Lec Prof. I got a B+. Good, yes, but as he says, I could have gotten an A if I had improved my writing (see previous entry)and worked just a bit harder. Yes, guilty. Sabi nga nila, huli ang pagsisisi. I hate this feeling, you know? Knowing that you COULD have gotten a better grade. But it's over and I can do nothing about it. I'm just looking forward to my remaining semesters- it's like this sem has been a wake-up call for me, and I vow to really do my best next time. Magis na ba to?

My grades this past sem seem to be shaping up well so far- good grades in both Chem Lec, Econ, and Philo (I hope). Math- ech. When did I ever do good in Math? It's almost enough for me to know that at least I didn't fail it. Chem Lab and EIA are both toss-ups. I have no idea what I will get in either one of them, and I don't even want to guess what.

And of course I chose finals week to finally update again, hmm? Just finished two of them, one earlier, one yesterday, my next will be on Saturday and finally philo orals on Tuesday so I can afford to slack off (a bit) this evening.

I just read an article in the Philippine Daily Inquirer that made me feel guilty. It had to do with teachers and their students' handwriting, and mine is horrendous. Ever since elementary, when one of my teachers commented 'Parang gubat ang sulat mo' in one of my notebooks, it has been awful. One of my high school teachers told me that maybe my writing evolved this way because I was forced to learn cursive in a rush- when I changed schools in Grade 2, my new one required cursive writing, while at the one I transferred from, print was still acceptable, forcing my mother to give me two hour penmanship 'lessons' every evening.

Now in the article, sinabi ni Michael Tan na nababastos raw siya sa mga sulat ng mga estudyante niya na di niya talaga mabasa. Oops. Natamaan ako a. Most of the papers in school are typewritten, but for one particular Organic Chemistry homework which needed to be handwritten, my professor wrote something in it when he returned it to me, again pointing to my writing. Double oops. I guess I'll have to practice something this sembreak ....

Yes, I know should be doing a ton of stuff right now, but I just can't resist personality tests, can I? Death Note watchers/readers, can you enlighten me as to who my character is (I haven't gotten around to downloading it, plan to do so someday)? Is she cool? I bet she's a supporting character!

( Naomi who? )

It's been a long time since I've updated this, so let's get down to business! Note: I apologize in advance for the frequent codeswitching- I don't have time to gather/translate my thoughts in one language anywhere. And if you hang out with me enough, preferably at home, you will find out that oo, ganito talaga ako mag-isip.

1) I had no three day weekend to speak of, as I spent Friday morning at an ACC (Ateneo Christian Community) meeting. Mga ika-10 ng nakaraang gabi ko lang napagdesisyunan na pupunta ako, pero buti na lang at oo. Praise God, I learned very much from a group of people who were a blessing to be around. The atmosphere was extremely electric, like something big was about to happen, and I pray that something really is. It was so catching that nasa McDo na kami't nakabili ng pagkain, di pa rin kami tumitigil sa pag-uusap. Sana talaga matuloy na ngayong taon!

2) Philo makes my head hurt. Kagaya ng sabi ng blockmate ko, hindi naman sa mahirap magturo yung prof, pero mahirap talaga yung subject matter mismo. And I am not used to spending 1 hour and 30 minutes of time bending my mind around topics of abstractness. It doesn't help that the last time I did any serious reading dealing with abstract topics/concepts was in AGES and I'm just not used to doing it anymore.

3) May nakakabwisit akong subject na hindi nakakabwisit. ES 175- Environmental Impact Assessment. Bakit nakakabwisit? 1-4 pm siya ng SABADO. Goodbye, weekend! E bakit naman hindi? Nakakatuwa e. Nakakatuwang makita yung prof namin na nagpapaliwanang ng mga natural na phenomenon gamit ang kanyang kaalaman sa physics, bio, at chemistry. Ang galing! Makes you realize: 'Hey, 3rd year na ako, ba't di ko mapaliwanag yan?' I get his explanations, I just can't explain them the way he does. And its frustrating.

Stolen from belle.



Hmmmm. Interesting. I think the Advocating part applies perfectly to me, but not the Inventor one! I thought I was clear in the survey that I am not imaginative when it comes to challenging problems! :p

Here I am trying to squeeze out what's left of summer before the 13th. I've gone to the beach with both my blockmates and HS best friends in the gap between the end of summer classes and reg. For reg: I have an ideal schedule picked out, but I'm not sure that I'm going to get it because my random number is really really high. Argh.

So what else have I been doing aside from watching asian dramas, reading books and fixing my room? I've been playing an online browser based game called Kingdom of Loathing, also known as KoL. It makes fun of most common elements in most RPGs (there is a 'Typical Tavern' and a 'Gigantic Superfluous Fountain') and is a really fun game with many in-jokes and pop culture references. The best thing is, it's free and you don't have to download anything! The orientation thing is a bit boring but if you stick with it, you'll find it really really fun. :D

I got my grades for summer classes on Monday. They were pretty good, which only motivated me to study harder and really make good this year. Go! Kaya natin to!

Inaayos ko ngayon yung sked ko na pang next sem. Sakit sa ulo! 7:30 halos araw-araw. Di maiiwasan, chem pa kasi. Tapos may isa akong major na 1-4 tuwing Sabado! Haaay ano ba naman ito?

Mga linggo na rin ako hindi nakakalog-in, kaya puwede bang may mag-explain sakin tungkol sa nangyayari sa LJ? Salamat!